Sky

Sky can give us wonderful thoughts. Staring into the blue sky, looking at how the wind blows and appreciating how the clouds join together into one big cloud gives me such wonderful feeling in my head and heart.

A human mind is just full of wonders.
It was a breezy afternoon, where the sun wasn't very hot, and the wind blowing cool air that brushes through my hair.

I rode my bicycle to the nearest playground and found a slide to lie on. The feeling was just too relaxing.
Each time the wind blows it gives me the goose bump and send chills down my spine. But still I enjoyed it.

My mind started floating astray, I wondered why can the sky be so blue, why does the wind blow and the clouds moves. It is as if everyone is too busy, busy with their life, busy working, busy earning a living and nobody stopped to enjoy the sky.

Maybe I was too stressed out on my assignment, I needed a breathe. Assignment can sometimes be burdensome. But we need to pass it. We need to get a degree. The society is being so realistic and uses our certificate to judge us.

I closed my eyes. I spent almost forty minutes on the slide enjoying the wind blowing, the birds chirping, the leaves on the trees waving. I told myself that I must be strong. I need to work hard. As long as I did my best, I shall not regret anything in life. I shall not regret spending my time in University.

After that refreshing sleep, I came back home and wrote this blog.

Many little things around us can inspire us in many ways to solve problems and so on, just make sure that when we are faced with problems, we do not solve things in rush. Take a pace slow and think of all the alternatives. Things will be solved eventually.

Love & Sacrifices

How to train your dragon is recently airing in the cinema. 

I managed to spent my time to go and watch it. 

I enjoyed it a lot.

Overall the movie, story line, graphics, and audio are just wonderful.

What I like most is the story line that connects both first episode and second one. One of it is the relationship of the main character, Hiccup, and his dad, Hoist. I can relate very much about their relationship with me and my dad.

Hiccup has never been what the father wishes him to be, where his father's expectation was different from what he wants. He tries to find ways to actually make his father proud, but most of the time he fails to do so. I myself feel the same way too. When finally I try something that I think that "this could make my father happy/proud" it always turn out the other way round.

Hiccup struggles his way through and finally met with toothless.  He brought toothless to meet with his dad and tried convincing him to accept. Soon after that, he was able to convince his dad as well as the whole village that dragons brings no harm.

This part of the movie inspired me despite facing tough and challenging difficulties, we have to always stay positive and think positive and try our best to find a solution to it. Of course, when faced with problem we can always seek help from others and ask with a polite manner. Positive is the key to success. In my university life I faced with numerous failures in my studies, but I still stayed positive and keep the negative thoughts away from me.

And in the second episode, Hiccup with his stubbornness trying to do something to make his father proud and adventuring alone, end up causing his father to be attacked and died. Although at the end he became a hero and chief to his village, he still lost his father.

We should be aware that each and everything has a limit to it. We must control ourselves to not go over the limit. It will only cause trouble or problems will arise. Avoiding these problems will be the best solution, but if faced with it, we must use the correct method to solve it.

This part of the movie inspired me that a father's love for his child/children is uncountable to the extend that they are willing to sacrifice for them. Unconditional love is shown here. Maybe a father's way of showing his love to the child may be indirect, but deep down there is always a caring and loving heart.

My father has the exact characteristic as Hoist. He has rules and discipline values towards his children but also with a very caring and loving heart.

This let me to think for a moment, maybe it doesn't only happens to me, maybe many dads in the world are the same. But ultimately, a father has unconditional love for his child/children.

Incident

This happened to me on a Tuesday morning. I was at my friend's apartment eating my early lunch when suddenly my friend and I suddenly heard a loud "THUMP" outside. We ignored it at first thinking that someone dropped something from the upper level. But not long after that, someone from downstairs shouted in BM, "Ada orang jatuh!! orang jatuh!!"

Out of curiosity we went out and have a look towards downstairs. We saw an old man lying on the zinc from the first floor. Without much thinking my friend locked her door and both of us ran downstairs to find out more. Upon reaching the first floor, the whole scenario became even clearer. Wild guesses was the uncle fell from high level and was fortunately saved by the zinc roof. However it scared the people working below it as there were workers of the restaurant that operates at the ground floor right under the roof. The uncle that was lying unconscious. His skin around his arms and leg was wounded from the sharp edges of the zinc.

It made me start to wonder...

Is he a resident here?
Did the uncle lost consciousness while leaving from his home and fell over the railing?
Is he all alone here?

I started to think...

I should do something and I have to do it fast! he is lying there, in danger, that roof may not be able to hold him long enough.
Somebody should do something as well. help him up maybe? Call for ambulance?
I am someone who always like to help people, this the opportunity, why am I not doing anything?

That moment of time I had an internal battle of myself. The Id and Ego appeared inside me.

A good samaritarian who happened to be there quickly grab his phone and dialed for ambulance. He spent almost 10 minutes explaining the scenario over the phone.

But it took a very long time before the ambulance came and the uncle finally got his consciousness and started move around. Me and my friend worried that the zinc may collapse and so we tried to stop him from moving. Speaking in Mandarin then Cantonese to the uncle, he seems like he wasn't able to hear nor understand what we were trying to tell him. Maybe he was still suffering from dizziness.

One of the resident who was curious went up floor by floor to trace back how did the uncle end up falling down found out that his slipper was nicely arranged on the 8th floor and made a conclusion that he decided to suicide.

The thought of it made me want to help him even more. Soon after that people from the restaurant got ladder and other resident threw cushions down to prepare a soft landing spot for the uncle just in case he fell.

In a matter of minutes the uncle started ignoring what we were telling him and he started to move trying to climb up. I couldn't take it anymore and I quickly ran to the ground floor and take a look at the structure of the zinc roof and told the people to give support below it so that i can climb above the zinc and help the uncle up.

Many of them felt that it was not ok to help him up as he fell from 8th floor and may have internal injury and further more the zinc may not support both our weight.

I knew that helping him up was the right thing to do. I told myself that. I looked around and nobody seems like they want to give a helping hand.

I climbed over the side of the wall on to the zinc and successfully pull the uncle up with the help of another foreigner who came to help.

I felt the exhaustion of helping the uncle up all over my body, but my heart and mind told me that it was worth it. At that moment I really felt like shedding tears.

After climbing over the wall, the other residents placed him lying on the floor and found a note in his pocket. It turned out to be a will written by the uncle.

When I knew about the will was already prepared earlier by the uncle, so much thoughts came into my mind. 

First thing was I felt choked up and my eyes became watery.

Why would this uncle choose to end his life? 

Why would he write such heartbroken letter and placed it with him? Where are his loved ones?

he thought of my grandmother also came into my mind. I silently asked myself.. Why?

But still, no matter what, what the uncle did to himself gave me a proper chance to reflect on my own life as well. There are so many kinds of people in the world. Some that are optimistic, some pessimistic. Some of those that are unable to accept the fate of their lives and chooses to end them while leaving their loved ones behind.

My mother's mother, which is also my grandmother, who is currently reaching the age of 80 years old still active and kicking is so positive and optimistic about her life. She said that if she leaves the world one day, which may happen anytime, she leaves worries, sadness or negativity behind but only good thoughts and happiness as her memories. I wonder why didn't this uncle thought the same way...

It struck me that after this incident that soon after I finish with my studies I want to get job, or maybe a hobby that is committed in helping people, to give them enough love and care and also time. There are uncountable problems that we face in the world, every second every minute every day, and I believe that every one of it has a solution. So love your live. I swear that I will love mine and cherish every moment of it.

P/S: Inside his letter he wrote that he is suffering from Cancer and he doesn't want to live anymore. He apologizes to his wife, and his sons. He even wrote his name, Identity Card Number and full address as well as his son's phone number.